Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Things never happen the same way twice....



It started out as a feeling


Which then grew into a hope


Which then turned into a quiet thought


Which then turned into a quiet word


And then that word grew louder and louder


'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back


When you call me


No need to say goodbye


Just because everything's changing


Doesn't mean it's never


Been this way before


All you can do is try to know


Who your friends are


As you head off to the war


Pick a star on the dark horizon


And follow the light


You'll come back


When it's over


No need to say good bye
You'll come back


When it's over


No need to say good bye
Now we're back to the beginning


It's just a feeling and now one knows yet


But just because they can't feel it too


Doesn't mean that you have to forget


Let your memories grow stronger and stronger


'Til they're before your eyes


You'll come back


When they call you


No need to say good bye
You'll come back


When they call you


No need to say good bye


By- Regina Spektor


Sometimes one just gives up and wants to go back to those not so big amazing moments in life, like just to get a glimpse of your first crush you'd walk on the streets randomly, like when it was a pleasure to sit beside the phone and wait for the call that would make your day, like the time you'd take hours and hours to decide what gift will be the best one for that special person,like a summer fling, the feeling that you got when you looked back and saw that person staring right back at you and his eyes saying that he'd be there when you come back next summer.


But soon you realise that things do not happen the same way again, cause this time when you go wandering down the streets you know for sure you wont find him, you know that the phone might ring, but the it will never ever be the call you've been expecting, or when you go back this summer that person is for sure not going to be there. But again something in your heart would just want you to look back just once, it'll still make you hopelessly wanna sit next to the phone ...just in case things are the same...hehe they wont be..


Its so weird and sometimes so pissing off in my case, but its always hard to accept the truth.


Like i am gonna meet this friend after like two years, and i know and i guess even she knows that both of us have changed this span of two years, and i don,t know if its gonna be the same like it was two years ago or not, will still find the friend that we had two years ago in each other, or there'll a weird kind of awkwardness in our conversations... and we'd wish if we could just rewind time and be 17 again , and it's gonna hurt to not be able to do that ....anyways i'll end here before i frustrate myself